The simple life--A fading memory

I was flipping through our family photo album and looking through many of my baby pictures. I'd smile at each cute picture of the pleasant memories when my siblings & I were younger. In those days, I remember having so much fun. All I remember were the times I played around with my brother and sister...I can't even remember much of what I did in Pre-K or Kindergarten. Those were really happy times.

Looking through the pictures made me wish things were just as simple as before. When I was younger, I wasn't thinking about much except that I wanted to play Barbie with my sister, eat fun snacks my mom would make us, watch cartoons, and pretend to make my own little world with sofa cushions. I realize now that as you get older, you start to worry more about so many things. In grade school, it was all about passing and making it through another school year. College was all about prepping for the real world. Now that I've finally graduated with my Bachelor's, it's expected that I grow up. I know...it's life and it's inevitable. Even my parents are worried about me, especially my mom. All they think about is finding a decent job, making sure I have health insurance, blah blah blah.... I know they mean well and they really want the best for me, but sometimes I want to remove myself from everything and just observe life.

Life. It's so complicated and complex. With some people it comes easy for them. For others, like me, I just feel like things could get harder still. Life with me has never been easy. There is always something. If it wasn't my bad grades, it was my health; If it wasn't my health, it was my relationships with people; if it wasn't my relationship with people, it was my relationship with God. I can't seem to do anything right for a while. Life is one big roller coaster ride. I guess right now, and forever, all I can do is hold on to God. He is the One who has been a constant stabilizer. No matter how high or low I get, how close or far I feel, God is always there.

Omnipresent. Omnipotent. Omniscient.

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