I'm a living vapor...

This is my one semester closer to graduating (in Spring 2011). I'm really excited because I'm so close to finishing! Finally, after 6 years in college it will be a big sigh of relief once this is done. Hahaha! Anyways, this semester I have decided to get involved with a lot more things on campus. I guess my reason being is because I wasn't involved as much for the first 4 years since starting college. Crazy...i know! So, here I am, involved with so many activities especially with church and internship stuff. Seriously, this is already the month of November...things should be winding down, but it seems to be getting crazier every week. I just need to focus on the prize!

Here I am when all the world is asleep And I can't seem to rest my head Because of the one thing that consumes my thoughts. I don't know what to say, What to think Or what to do. I am a little lost and confused. It has been a great while Since I have gotten a response, So don't get me wrong when I say I'm a little anxious. Only time will tell, I'm sure But does it have to be this long? My question is "when" then "how." It seems a little impossible at the moment Because nothing is really happening right now. I don't have a clue and it must be amusing to think so. I feel a little empty when I know I'm already full. So, should I be satisfied and content With the here and now? Or is there something greater in the near future? I really don't know And I really want to. It's a strange thing to have to sit here And go on as though I'm prepared. Maybe I'm not. I just really don't know...

So, I wanna share something I witnessed. [And just so you know, before you read the rest of my entry, I'm currently on my Senior year taking an internship course at the Camillus House agency...specifically, with the ACT Team program. Camillus House is an agency that assists current/former homeless & low income individuals. The ACT Team works to find these homeless individuals permanent housing.] Yesterday, I went with 2 clinicians from my agency to go to court for one of our clients. As we were waiting in the waiting area (which was full of people, by the way), one of the clinicians sat next to the client and talked about a few essential items they may currently need; one of which included the use of a grocery store gift card to be used for food. It so happens that as their discussion progressed, it turns out that the particular grocery store is not located in the client's area. The clinician then had to find out which was the closest store to the client's zip code....

Have you ever had a really bad day (or perhaps you've had consecutive bad days)? I have...these past few days. You think that after one day, it couldn't get any worse...but it does. It's such a depressing thing to have to go through because you can barely see the light at the end of the tunnel. Well, at least for me. However, because I have a personal relationship with God, I know that all this will pass and that everything that I go through will not go void. It's so easy to throw myself a pity party, but I know that it won't do me any good if I sulk and cry about it rather than making an effort to overcome the challenges. I tend to focus on the negative instead of the positives...initially. But the greatest thing about God is that He is constantly pursuing us to give us hope for a brighter day. One of my favorite verses I like to refer to is Jeremiah 29:11, which says " For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “ plans to prosper yo u and n...