Ramble-ness

Here I am when all the world is asleep
And I can't seem to rest my head
Because of the one thing that consumes my thoughts.
I don't know what to say,
What to think
Or what to do.
I am a little lost and confused.
It has been a great while
Since I have gotten a response,
So don't get me wrong when I say I'm a little anxious.
Only time will tell,
I'm sure
But does it have to be this long?

My question is
"when" then "how."
It seems a little impossible at the moment
Because nothing is really happening right now.
I don't have a clue and it must be amusing to think so.

I feel a little empty when I know I'm already full.
So, should I be satisfied and content
With the here and now?
Or is there something greater in the near future?
I really don't know
And I really want to.
It's a strange thing to have to sit here
And go on as though I'm prepared.
Maybe I'm not.
I just really don't know...

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