I'm a girl!
Surprised? lol. I only say that because as a girl, I act so much like a girl...even with things that make my heart float, skip, jump, and sink. Sometimes I like it, then other times I strongly dislike it. Having a sporadic heart is hard to handle. *le sigh*
Alrighty...so, on that note, I wanted to share with you something I've experienced recently. Yea, it has to do with a boy. But here's the thing...it's kinda different from the other crushes I've had. I think what really surprised me was that he was meeting a lot of the qualities on my list. List? What list? Ok, so back in middle school, I was told to make a list of qualities I'm looking for in a husband. This was to keep me from jumping at every opportunity any guys says he wants to date me. I was really naïve back then, so my list looked a little something like this:
1. Has to be a Christian
2. Have a sense of humor
3. Have brown hair & green eyes
That was pretty much it, lol. Over the years my list changed, adding and/or removing a few qualities. Up until recently my list became a little specific. For example, instead of "has to be a Christian," it became "has to be a man after God's own heart." I've learned that anybody can call themselves a Christian but their talk never matches their walk. I remember someone telling me that my standards were too high and it would be impossible for someone to meet them. Yea, I was a little discouraged and wanted to lower my standards a bit. But I believe that as long as God is always at the center of my decisions and I follow His direction, He will bring out the perfect guy for me (meeting all the qualities on my list). I know that whoever this person may be will have flaws and imperfections...and this is why God has taught me to have room for grace and mercy. After all, I'm not so perfect either.
So back to this guy...
After meeting and talking a few times, I was seeing a lot of his character/personality and godly qualities come out. In my mind I was thinking, "Forreal, God?" But I had to stop myself before I let my heart run free. There have been so many instances where I've thought some person was the one, only to realize that he really wasn't. I've prayed so hard for God to quiet my heart because I couldn't trust myself to have self-control. Within a few moments in God's presence, I was able to take a deep breath and put things into perspective. It's not like I really want to do this, but I had to see this guy like a godly brother...that perhaps he really isn't for me but someone else's future husband. With that, my heart was still again.
Through this experience, I believe God was just showing me that there are other godly men who can meet some of the qualities on my list because there are other amazing godly women who are waiting for these kinds of men, too. In addition, I've learned that I should be a little more specific (haha!). After reading Lady in Waiting, by Jackie Kendall & Debby Jones, I have read about other qualities that I should be looking for based on God's Word. It makes sense because I would like this special man to be the kind of man that God could use as a wonderful husband and a respectable father. So for now, I still have no idea who my prince charming may be or where he is this very moment. All I know is that God is working and all He wants me to do is to trust Him and His timing.
Alrighty...so, on that note, I wanted to share with you something I've experienced recently. Yea, it has to do with a boy. But here's the thing...it's kinda different from the other crushes I've had. I think what really surprised me was that he was meeting a lot of the qualities on my list. List? What list? Ok, so back in middle school, I was told to make a list of qualities I'm looking for in a husband. This was to keep me from jumping at every opportunity any guys says he wants to date me. I was really naïve back then, so my list looked a little something like this:
1. Has to be a Christian
2. Have a sense of humor
3. Have brown hair & green eyes
That was pretty much it, lol. Over the years my list changed, adding and/or removing a few qualities. Up until recently my list became a little specific. For example, instead of "has to be a Christian," it became "has to be a man after God's own heart." I've learned that anybody can call themselves a Christian but their talk never matches their walk. I remember someone telling me that my standards were too high and it would be impossible for someone to meet them. Yea, I was a little discouraged and wanted to lower my standards a bit. But I believe that as long as God is always at the center of my decisions and I follow His direction, He will bring out the perfect guy for me (meeting all the qualities on my list). I know that whoever this person may be will have flaws and imperfections...and this is why God has taught me to have room for grace and mercy. After all, I'm not so perfect either.
So back to this guy...
After meeting and talking a few times, I was seeing a lot of his character/personality and godly qualities come out. In my mind I was thinking, "Forreal, God?" But I had to stop myself before I let my heart run free. There have been so many instances where I've thought some person was the one, only to realize that he really wasn't. I've prayed so hard for God to quiet my heart because I couldn't trust myself to have self-control. Within a few moments in God's presence, I was able to take a deep breath and put things into perspective. It's not like I really want to do this, but I had to see this guy like a godly brother...that perhaps he really isn't for me but someone else's future husband. With that, my heart was still again.
Through this experience, I believe God was just showing me that there are other godly men who can meet some of the qualities on my list because there are other amazing godly women who are waiting for these kinds of men, too. In addition, I've learned that I should be a little more specific (haha!). After reading Lady in Waiting, by Jackie Kendall & Debby Jones, I have read about other qualities that I should be looking for based on God's Word. It makes sense because I would like this special man to be the kind of man that God could use as a wonderful husband and a respectable father. So for now, I still have no idea who my prince charming may be or where he is this very moment. All I know is that God is working and all He wants me to do is to trust Him and His timing.
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