I'm so lost...


I've been trying to find my journal everywhere and I can't seem to find it. I really want to get my thoughts out because I feel like lately it's been piling up.

So, one of the biggest areas I'm struggling in is my job. And mind you, it's not so much the clients but my coworkers and bosses. It seems for the past months, on the days I work, I wake up feeling anxious, discouraged, and overwhelmed. I hear of the way things are being managed and run and I can't help but feel insecure from the lack of structure. There's a sense of unethical practice and unprofessionalism that disgusts me. Would you believe it...in the past 5-6 months that I have been hired to work in this particular agency, I have heard and witnessed 4 people either quit or got fired. Even as an intern, working in the same agency for about 7-8 months, I have seen 4 other people quit. These people who "quit" were the ones who did some of the best work. You wonder that an agency that has great employees would do almost anything to keep them.

I'm so uncertain about everything, including this job. I really don't know what will happen. I want to get out of this mess so bad but every place I've applied to have rejected my application. I feel discouraged because I feel stuck. At the same time, I'm trying to view my situation through God's perspective. I'm trying to figure out what God wants me to see in the midst of this chaos.

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