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You know what I find a tad bit annoying?
How things don't seem to go the way you wanted it or the way you planned it.
For the past years, I believe God has been trying to teach me to depend on Him at times like these. You see, the thing is I tend to get all worked up dreaming up possibilities. Then I become discouraged and disappointed when things are not quite how I expected. I think what really hurts most is when these moments have something to do with God and ministry. When this happens, sometimes I'll share this with another Christian. Sometimes when we talk about this, I'll feel inspired and motivated. Other times I feel like Job from the Bible, where his friends try to give a reason and an answer for everything as a way to "console." I can't tell you how many times I've heard, "There's a reason for everything," or "Maybe now is not the time." Often times when we comfort our friends or family and we don't know how to make something negative sound positive, we'll default to the whole reason for everything. Honestly though, I don't think some people like hearing that phrase when they feel really down, upset, discouraged, and hurt.
A couple days ago, I spoke to a friend who is a Christ-follower. I shared about how I've been struggling in a ministry area where it was hard to meet with the group people on a regular basis. Immediately, my friend told me how there was a reason for everything and that God had a reason for allowing this to happen. She even started mentioning that perhaps there was something God was still working in me, like the ministry is on hold while I get my life back on track. I saw what she meant and I respected her opinion, but in my heart I had to disagree because the people in my ministry were struggling themselves in their relationship with God. I believe that my friend took the "not meeting on a regular basis" as something that God allowed so I can work on my relationship with God. However, I see it as a group of people who are not connected to a church and their only outlet for spiritual growth was this group but by meeting once a week and for such a short time, they may have felt a little unmotivated. Call me insane but that was just the way I saw it. I still am praying for God to open my heart to whatever it is He wills regarding this group, but I don't believe these people should be affected for my sake.
There were other things that have happened, however, I will just leave this post as it is.
Oh, God! Please help me right now. I need Your guidance and security because I'm feeling clueless about a lot of things. All I want is for Your name to be proclaimed in every area of my life. Ready my heart for Your answer. Lord God, I will wait for You!
How things don't seem to go the way you wanted it or the way you planned it.
For the past years, I believe God has been trying to teach me to depend on Him at times like these. You see, the thing is I tend to get all worked up dreaming up possibilities. Then I become discouraged and disappointed when things are not quite how I expected. I think what really hurts most is when these moments have something to do with God and ministry. When this happens, sometimes I'll share this with another Christian. Sometimes when we talk about this, I'll feel inspired and motivated. Other times I feel like Job from the Bible, where his friends try to give a reason and an answer for everything as a way to "console." I can't tell you how many times I've heard, "There's a reason for everything," or "Maybe now is not the time." Often times when we comfort our friends or family and we don't know how to make something negative sound positive, we'll default to the whole reason for everything. Honestly though, I don't think some people like hearing that phrase when they feel really down, upset, discouraged, and hurt.
A couple days ago, I spoke to a friend who is a Christ-follower. I shared about how I've been struggling in a ministry area where it was hard to meet with the group people on a regular basis. Immediately, my friend told me how there was a reason for everything and that God had a reason for allowing this to happen. She even started mentioning that perhaps there was something God was still working in me, like the ministry is on hold while I get my life back on track. I saw what she meant and I respected her opinion, but in my heart I had to disagree because the people in my ministry were struggling themselves in their relationship with God. I believe that my friend took the "not meeting on a regular basis" as something that God allowed so I can work on my relationship with God. However, I see it as a group of people who are not connected to a church and their only outlet for spiritual growth was this group but by meeting once a week and for such a short time, they may have felt a little unmotivated. Call me insane but that was just the way I saw it. I still am praying for God to open my heart to whatever it is He wills regarding this group, but I don't believe these people should be affected for my sake.
There were other things that have happened, however, I will just leave this post as it is.
Oh, God! Please help me right now. I need Your guidance and security because I'm feeling clueless about a lot of things. All I want is for Your name to be proclaimed in every area of my life. Ready my heart for Your answer. Lord God, I will wait for You!
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